So nearing the end of the semester apparently translates to “Hey wouldn’t it be crazy if we QUADRUPLED your current workload?” And so the spiral into neverending work gets even steeper.
Which only aggravates the awful truth that I am sleep deprived and frustrated and homesick and sad and anxious and scared and barely functioning and I’m just so tired of being and feeling these things all at once. And I just wanna be better. But I’m not.
And I just went full Debbie Downer on this post but I’m starting to think that poker facing my way through this is just not going to work anymore.
So I’ll be trying hard to start functioning properly again soon. Hopefully that means I can achieve a better state of being and start drawing for myself again and post new things soon. Because I do have so many ideas and the want to put them to paper, I just can’t seem to get myself to move right now. But I want to thank all 84 of my current followers for sticking with me so far. I appreciate every single like and reblog and just the thought that there are real people who like what I make is enough to make every day better than it would be otherwise.
So here’s hoping I can start being ok again.